SUNSET GIRL

“My soul is opening. My soul is trembling.”

— Juan Ramón Jiménez, tr by Robert Bly, from “White Elm Tree,” wr. c. 1916

1,231 notes - 12 January 2019

People have always left and left harshly without apologies and they have been doing it since I started loving. The more they do it the more I protect myself but I just want to forgive them and maybe even say thank you and then embrace what is here now and what has not left me.

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georgiansuggestion:

weep at the smallest kindness extended to you

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Idky but I’ve been in the mood to revise my whole life on social media. I’m removing so many posts and accounts and now I’m going through this blog from the beginning and I feel like I’m meeting my 18 year old self for the first time in a very long time and she is teaching me. I have changed so much. I have grown of course but that young girl was so vulnerable and courageous and strong and unashamed and she had faith, she had love for everything beautiful and ugly and kind and cruel, and I want to bring her back to life a little bit somehow. My heart has hardened from life. My soul has gotten quieter because I have been around people that quiet their souls and I have been hurt. But I can feel her wanting to come out lately. I feel loved and supported and challenged and I can feel that self growing in me again but I cannot figure out how to pull her out. I don’t want to protect myself so much anymore. I don’t want to be so afraid.

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Anonymous: something that has helped me in my ldr has been establishing how often we want to communicate with each other, and in what way (texts, phone calls, or facetime etc). i didn't do this at the beginning of my ldr, thinking that we would fall into a natural rhythm but our schedules differed & we had different levels of busyness so that didn't happen. once we set some expectations it really helped ease frustration.

Thank youuu

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Anonymous: You don't really post on patreon that much anymore:'(

I know, I haven’t been creatively writing at all. I feel bad. But I have a bunch of film photos I’m going to scan and put up this week. I don’t know what to share with you all right now but I know I need to be consistently sharing something!

I’ve been studying a lot and working on the process so I can share those bits?

- 12 January, 2019

squeezie14: My bf (now husband) and I went months without seeing each other for 3 years while he toured and lived in LA. We would FaceTime/Skype and make meals together or sit quietly and read. We also each had a journal for the time we were apart and exchanged them when we were reunited. He always left me with the shirt he wore for the last 24 we were together, and he always took my pillow with him when he left. Also, we watched movies at the same time while apart and texted our comments while watching ❤️

I looove this. I hope you don’t mind if I post.

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wethinkwedream:

tips for long distance relationships? from ppl who have been in them? he’s gonna be traveling a lot on and off and I will come for some trips but not most, so it’ll be months without seeing him.

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violentwavesofemotion:

Sometimes it’s not even complicated? Sometimes it just comes down to a person knowing you in their innermost heart and trusting you with their innermost heart and that’s about it? Sometimes it’s cruelly, specifically simple.

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Anonymous: Try to schedule times a day/week you can call or FaceTime or keep in touch. I used to send pics when my partner was traveling of cute things I saw that reminded me of them. Don’t overload with texts though, and use the time to enjoy your own time and space. If you miss them badly you can write them letters to give to them when they get back

I like the idea of writing letters to give him when he gets back. Thank you ❤️

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Anonymous: This is a very unpopular opinion but I loved my ldr. The key is to make sure there is an end date to it. The seeing each other in between- it keeps that honeymoon feeling alive for soooooo much longer. It’s romantic and agonizing. And fuck it sucks sometimes, but so does regular love and life! It’s just a different way to do it. You both will retain your independence, and your hearts really will grow fonder with the distance.

Thank you bby this helps calm my nerves

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Anonymous: It’s hard to make a name for yourself as a writer with being a secret.

some people just want to start over in that way or have something for themselves. it’s okay. I want to be a secret again for a little while.

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